Saturday, May 30, 2009 ♥
First and Last Impression ♥
Impression is a strange thing
When a person is being shot down
He/She will never be able to climb up anymore
Am i right or wrong?
Anyone has any comments or opinion~Anyway this week alot aeroplane fly...LolxDo u get wat i mean?Put aeroplane XDJus joking~Take care everyone!I'm never in a position to speak out whats in my mind
What do i want in life?
I have no idea all the time...
Monday, May 25, 2009 ♥
Thinking... ♥
Thinking and thinking...I dont wan to let go jus like this...
Sunday, May 24, 2009 ♥
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Friday went out with Amos and KennethThen play with Mos 'Pump It Up' 30 songsPlay until shag sia...So tiredEat Subway for our meal and then go home at niteThen Saturday plan to go SentosaSo many ppl dua me...End up left a few ppl~Me and Mos had fun wit his friendsPlay volley ball and fresbeeThen Qp and Hy comeThen Bury Hy with the sand and take picture~Lolx...Went to Tampines to eat and meet Sc and MatuDance "Pump It Up' again...Unexpected sia~ qp, sc, matu all wan to danceThen let them dance lorhx, since can 2 playerThen i on form~ hohoho!!!Get alot S rank, means bo miss any note...Go eat supper at the malay store24hr de, eat prata~I forget pay Sc the money... crap...After tht jiu go Sc hse overnite...But then end up all sleepingHy drink liao high highKeep laughing non stop~ =.=Then i super tired after one whole day of sportsAlso toh liao~ Drop dead~Sunday morning liao jiu go Mac eat breakfastThen go home emo liao~Alone again... sigh...Think of alot things again when im aloneThen no one to talk to... sigh...Haix!!!!!
Saturday, May 23, 2009 ♥
Life and my life... ♥
No mood to reply tagboard... Sry...Things are like this now... It will nv get better anymoreIt will nv be like how it used to be...I missed herEven tho her mind is not thinking of me when we r outIts does not really matters to me...Seeing her outside with others happily really makes me feel oddI have no idea whether to feel happy or sad...Cnt understand what others is thinking... im so useless...If being gentle to a gal is like gay or gal?Then y people always complain their guys r too harsh...Reality is reality~I really knw now that in your heart im at this standard...Pehaps im really a failure as a personSC used to say that im born in the wrong body~Haix...I nv thought that...I nv thought that...I nv thought that...Im pratically dead...75 Days and still counting... I love u...
Wednesday, May 20, 2009 ♥
Posting... ♥
I really did not complain to anyone...Believe me...
Sunday, May 17, 2009 ♥
Haix~~~ ♥
_____________________________________ahKC - Hehex, yupyup. Y leahx?Audrey - Lolx. i will try to barhx~ >.<Jialing - How u find me de sia? From Andy blog ar?WM - U bo reply~ not me. lolx T.T_____________________________________Haix... Im always thinking y i cnt talk moreI jus seems like a boring guy when im out with othersBut actually im not lorhxI can talk alot with my other friends sia...Wats wrong with me seahx...Haix...WM is going to fine me for saying Haix liaoBut i hack care... hohoho~She seems to be able to enjoy so muchLaugh, smile, talk with others happily...She seems to be so happy and lively lorhxThen is like when it comes to meIts so silent... and i cant seems to bring her out of her own worldI tired speaking out also like dotx~ got firewallBlock tio... lolx...And kena anti virus scan and full system scanningWash away everything that i wanted to sayAnd its back to silent again...Im so pathetic sia...Even Regine meet her first time also can tok so much to herWat shld i do???
Saturday, May 16, 2009 ♥
Saturday & Sunday ♥
_________________________________Lingg - Lolx, cux miss u too much marhxx =XBunny - Learn lorhx... but i retarded de T.TAndy - Linked. hohohoXiao Rainbox - Hehex tyty, tag u b later~_________________________________


Ytd went out with Twinnie and Regine after work
Sianx diao sia, tio hold back in office
Actually wanted to run off half day de lorhx
Then can go fetch Twinnie
End up cnt sia...
They walk walk at Lot1
And then chit chat lorhx
While waiting me~
Then chiong down from office to CCK
So far seahx~
When i enter Tamp Mrt thr, got two gal veh funny sia
For further details, ask me... lazy type~ lolx
Oni told matu and bunny abt it currently
Then the mrt at Jurong East so pack sia
Then change train to CCk tht time
Enter the train surrounded by black ppl
OMG sia...
Like rotted fish liddat sia, the smell
I finding place to breathe...
Crap sia!!!
Control breath as much as i can
Until reach CCK
Then go take neoprints with Regine and Twinnie
Walk to library~ like for nth liddat
Then saw the baby corner for Regine =X
Went down to mac and eat
Then they look at me eat sia
So pai seh~
Then tou pai my pic, i din knw
They down thr laugh laugh
Ask them y laugh also nv tell me
Then say outside got ppl
I still blur blur, go look outside sia~ rawr!
Went outside sit thr and talk
Then take some pictures and then nth to do le
Walk round and round then pei Regine go home
After that walk back with Twinnie to the interchange
Send her home then i go back le
Reach the bus stop saw the stupid bus run off
So i decide to walk to the MRT
Got lost half way sia~
Then ask ppl for direction lorhx
The person point digonally sia
Then i walk across the field
Step until middle so muddy =.=
Diaox!!!
Then walk over liao try walk faster scared last train
Took Mrt home then reach ard 12.15am barhx~
Wahaha
So tired today then eyes closing
Jus now slp in train, heng Tamp station wake up sia
Today nth to do leahx
Ppl ask me out today but lazy to go out
No whr to go also
Still ask me go tamp walk... lolx sianx
Everyday walk tamp liao
Then bunny wan go vivo
But then no one free
SC with family
Mos with NS friends
The rest die liao. lolx!
Jkjk~
Then so watch anime and chat on phone until now
Wednesday, May 13, 2009 ♥
Twinnie ♥
_____________________________________WM - Hard to cheer up la~ T.TJoey - Lolx, Im dead. Im dumb. But wat is ding dong?Qp - Tyty, go Sentosa~ Si amos bo comfirm wit me yetRegine - Hahax, tyty. Actually is oni the panda face nice niaJelly - Rare visitor siaa~ tytyLingg - No mood type marhx~ lolx_____________________________________
Name got robbed by Regine and TwinnieLolx~ heng i still got two or three more name to useYtd jus finish doing my blogskinHm... looks abit odd for me thoMaybe cux im not used to it,Or maybe cux i wan black color?It will look more emo emo with blackWahaha~Then got work to do in the officeDo do awhile then tmr need to continueCux time to go home jiu run liaoI guai de ok?I do until no work do then edit blogskin deTwinnie say i free loader in the company liddatLolx~Free internet, aircon and money T.TThen twinnie msg getting slower too lerhx~Was waiting for her msg almost the whole dayShe always say no ppl pei her derhx...Then i try stay up at nite to pei herBut then she also bo reply muchHaix...Then jiu sianx diao le lorhxSo went to slp suan liao~Duno issit cux got ppl pei her or msg her leNow in office liaoSupervisor heben come so dun need start work yetTho i on the program liao ok?See i so hardwork la!!! ^.^vToday Thursday at lastMy senior today got work so can pei me eat lunchHad been eating lunch for duno how many days alone leOmg!Is boring de lorhx.... walk all the way to expoThen ta pao subway back to eatEmo emo emo sia~Tmr shld be taking half day lerhx.... Hohoho!And Monday another full dayHope to go out with twinnie on Monday too siaBut duno she wan anot... haix...But tmr going over to CCK meet Regine and TwinnieI 1pm go off sia...Duno whr i can go before meeting leahxSianx diao~ Plan to loiter around the void deck of twinnieUntil she come down... LolxHm~ planning to go Sentosa siaNext Saturday... Anyone interested?Twinnie~ come larhx... >.<
Monday, May 11, 2009 ♥
Giving up ♥
Wo zhi dao le ta na li bi wo hao hen duoZai ni xin zhong Wo yong yuan bu ke neng hui rang ni xin dongWo zhi dao wo bi ta fu chu de hai duoKe shi woZai ni xin zhong mei you...Ta duo...Bunny, dui bu qi... always complain to uFrom now on i will try my best!HEEYA! And stay happy.... he.. he... he....I have scold enuf last niteThe others will be kept...Lets all wait for our own~Pehaps im weak...I jus cnt take it anymoreTo me, all the guys in the world r telling lies as wellT.THope i get bang down by a car or watever soonLife is boring...Go work le... buhbye...Last time~ And it will be in my heart...... Haix... nvm...Cnt say out anymoreLolxIm crapping in this postMaybe is lack of sleep???Or maybe i saw something i shld not see?Or watever la...
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Blogging ♥
Bunny - I'm pratically dead, not living dead assFriday was at ECP with twinnie
The bike shop closed at Pasir Ris
End up go over to ECP
Heng bo lost our way~
Took the bus to the nearest busstop
Then walk a long way in...
Find so long for the stupid shop lucky bo close
Rent the bike and cycle from one end to the other
The other side was block by so many fisher
The path so pwenny small
So decided to turn back at that point
Sing song tgt with twinnie
Chit chat here and there...
I have never talked so much to twinnie before
After so long the time was still quite early
Both of us tink the time veh slow...
Somehow i regretted~
It was fast for me when the day is ending...
How i wish the time could stop
Draw draw pic on the sand~
The stupid rain came
Keep on rush twinnie go shelther
Dun wan her get wet
Heng camp at Carl's Jr until rain stop
Go back still got the mark there
Then see the no sun de sun rise
Cloud so thick
My picture all is cloud...
Go return the bike then the shop not open
Wait so long then at last open le
Then go home liao~
Not enuf slp then need go gramp hse... Haix
Saturday is at thr over de... shagged
Wait for twinnie de msg for her to reach home
Wait for her msg until she gd mood then msg
Wait until midnite liddat...
Sunday No Life Also
Today went to work in the morning
Boring life...
Saw twinnie de sad face msg
And then she went to sleep le
See her blog post and got so worried
Whole day emo in office
Then send her another msg at 5+pm
Then she jus wake up...
Reach home le then msn her
I close my room door then end up tio stuck
The door spoil i think, then i stuck inside
Then mus force open the door~
Was damn depressed again when saw her msg
She dun reply much
Then came with the sad face
And talk abt him again...
(Please do not read bottom if u r underage)
I dont understand y some idiots like to hold on something
It seems like you are chasing someone else
And u dun let go this one
Say ily ily ily for **** sia...
U think its fun saying all this
But u dont knw they other person is feeling hurt
For **** sake, this is not a child game tht u play 10 yr back
Dont come tell me no time or watever crap
If u got the heart to do it, dun tell me in a freaking 2 months
U got not even a single day free
Your freaking good is jus for show or wat?
Treat how many ppl the same way liao huh?
U scared u cnt get the person u wan
Then u can come back issit!!!!!?
**** it la!
P.S : I'm going crazy, dun step on my land mine. God **** It!
Saturday, May 9, 2009 ♥
=.= ♥
Lingg - Nvm lurhx... few cents nia, let it dao also canahKC - Hab uh... i got link but i put your name but not as kcAt first got mood to type de...
Now no mood le Seriously shagged le......
Firstly, if u regretted wanting to ton
Tell me so and we wont be going
Secondly, I guess those who r close to me
Knows wat i am refering to liao
Thursday, May 7, 2009 ♥
Blog blog blog ♥
WM - Nothing is up, lolx. My life is damn boring sia...xiaorayy - Hehex thx thx.regine - Sound so fierce leahx u. lolxLingg - Tada! Update le. Got me the company wont dao bi de.Went to hand in declairation form And took the thermometer from sch ytdSo end up oni work half a dayToday tio caught dling song in officeJoker~Then they nv scold, oni ask me to deleteMy attachment cui liao... Gone caseDo some work and sms then play game6pm reach at last... How i wish is Friday lorhxThen went home... wat a boring lifeTwinnie seems more lively todayHohoho~
Tuesday, May 5, 2009 ♥
Sick ♥
Im sick at last. YES!I did it...I... did... it...But i did not go anywhere at allAlone at home~I din even meet to argue or quarrel todayI jus cant even stop myself from messagingWat a loser i amDun even have words to writeJus put a stupid face and got scoldedI really not good at anything...Pehaps i need to let go of f eveything soon...Pehaps this is all i could~ im weakI seriously very tired, sleepyHope it ends my life soon as wellA total of 66 days... 56 days of...And many days of sadnessFor all i could... I love U lots <3Too bad i came at the wrong timeOr pehaps it does not even make a differenceBecause i cant do anything at allMaybe i dun knw, maybe i dun dare...I really love u... i really do...Nvm... im dumb, bo liao~Ban ye shui bu zao jiaoBa xin qing heng cheng geZhi hao dao wu ding zhao ling yi ge meng jingShui meng zhong bei qiao xingWo hai shi bu que dingZen hui you dong ren xuan lu zai dui mian de wu dingWo qiao qiao guan shang menDai zhe xi wang shang quYuan lai shi wo meng li chang chu xian de na ge renNa ge ren bu jiu shi wo meng li na mo hu de renWo men you tong yang de mo qiYong tian xianPai cheng ai ni de xing zhuangZai wu ding chang zhu ni de ge (zai wu ding he wo ai de ren)Rang xing xing dian zhui cheng zui lang man de ye wanYong bao zhe shi ke zhe yi fen yi miao quan dou ting zhiAi kai shi jiu jieZai wu ding chang zhu ni de ge (zai wu ding he wo ai de ren)Jiang fan huang de ye xian gei zui gu du de yueYong bao zhe shi ke zhe yi fen yi miao quan dou ting zhiAi kai shi jiu jieMeng you ni er meiRang wo ai ni shi shei (shi wo)Rang ni ai wo shi shei (shi ni)Zen hui you dong ren xuan lu huan rao zai wo liang de shen bianRang wo ai ni shi shei (shi wo)Rang ni ai wo shi shei (shi ni)Yuan lai shi zhe wu ding you mei li de xie hou
Monday, May 4, 2009 ♥
Twinnie ♥
Yesterday was SundayWas sleeping almost the whole dayWaiting for twinnie to reply at the same timeHer mood dun seems good...And she was replying really slow...She say she hated me in one message~I cnt get to sleep after thatWaiting for the next message to comeI dun even knw whether i would wan it to come anotT.TI sleep and wake up to msg a few timesAt nite came le, she feeling better le...Reply veh slow too...Haix...Today Monday le~She msg me in the morning...And the one in the afternoonSomehow the amount of message seems countable nowIts lesser and colder...This is my life...Quarreled again, jus cux of something stupid...Felt like dying everyday~Happy over msgin him and angry over me saying thingsIm never better than himNeverNeverNeverNeverNeverNeverNever...Damn this life
Saturday, May 2, 2009 ♥
Friday and Sat ♥
Friday~Went out with Matu, SC, Wm, Wm de gf, Bunny and AmosGo all the way to Sembawang and sing KTVShout like mad then throat abit gone case liddat~Went to eat at nite and then i buy cup noodle to SC hseSadded, we too late for trainNeed to take taxi sia...Omg... i forget to pay SC taxi de money =.="At nite my phone bo batt liao~Cnt msg twinnie...Rush SC to on ebuddy for me to use=DUse Yi Rou de hairband looks like gal liddat~ lolxThen play card all the way... Then one by one start to slpOne on bed, one on sofa, one playing DotA until slp thereMe and Amos sleep on the floor... cnt sleep siaThen Amos snore damn loudWake me up sia~I poke poke him, he still slp until so song~ =.="Morning after wash face all those leOne by one go home nowI went home with SC to bathThen I charge my phone ^.^vMsg twinnie~Went back to SC hse and play mah jongWaited for two dumb bell End up tio dua~One sleeping, one go lanshopWm need to go homeSo left 3 people...Asked Yi Rou joined us then go tgt^.^v4 ppl go watch X-menSC say he need pay for 2 ppl de ticket~ lolxBecome my fault liao...Was going home, saw some dun wan see de pplDuno y tht stupid SC go call himIrritatingSo angry...Reach home and on computerTwinnie had not been replying much... haix...T.T Fell asleep infront of my com while waiting for her reply...Now wake up le then found out i fall aslpI dun think i need to off com now... lolxBuhbye~
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Quiz ♥
1.Real name : Derrick2. Nickname : Dun have???3. Star sign : Aries4. Male or female : Male5. Primary School : Yumin6. Secondary School : Pasir Ris7. JC/Poly : NYP8. Hair color : Blonde + Brown9. Long or short : Not long not short uh~10. Loud or Quiet : See is wit who lorhx11. Sweats or Jeans : Jeans barh...12. Phone or Camera : No phone sure die13. Health freak : Die also nvm14. Drink or Smoke? : I would drop dead if i smoke15. Do you have a crush on someone? : Yes... T.T16. Eat or Drink : Eat xD117. Piercings : Dun have uh~18. Tattoos : Nope...HAVE YOU EVER?19. Been in an airplane : Yuppz20. Been in a relationship : None, wat a sadist21. Been in a car accident : If i had, would i even be typing this?22. Been in a fist fight : Duno how to fight~FIRSTS:23. First piercing : Tell u dun have liao lorh~24. First best friend : Choon Yee25. First award : Pri sch de duno wat scholarship crap la~26. First crush : Dun feel like saying...28. First vacation : Japan, last year...LASTS:29. Last person you talked to : SC30. Last person you texted : Yi Rou31. Last person(s) you watched a movie with: SC, QP, Yi Rou32. Last food you ate : Hotdog bun =.=33. Last movie you watched : X-Men34. Last song you listened to : Zhi Dao35. Last thing you bought : Hotdog bun36. Last person you hugged : How i wished i have someone that i can hug...FAVES:37. Food : Choco38. Drinks : Any Soda will do...39. Clothing : Got hood de jiu can le...40. Books : I dun read books... i rather die41. Song : Lyk all the song i hear~42. Flower : I duno flower de names T.T43. Colors : Blue, black, White44. Movies : Cnt rmb wat i like most45. Phrase : Sianx...46. Subjects : Huh? Wat u mean subjects?47. [ ] Kissed in the snow 48. [ ] Celebrated Halloween49. [x] Had your heart broken50. [ ] Went over the minutes on your cell phone 51. [x] Someone questioned your sexual orientation 52. [x] Came out of the closet53. [ ] Gotten pregnant (Im a male, for god sake)54. [ ] Had an abortion (As i mentioned earlier =.=)55. [x] Done something you've regretted56. [x] Broke a promise57. [x] Hid a secret58. [x] Pretended to be happy59. [x] Met someone who changed your life60. [x] Pretended to be sick61. [x] Left the country62. [x] Tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it63. [x] Cried over the silliest thing64. [ ] Ran a mile (How much is a mile?)65. [ ] Went to the beach with your best friend(s)66. [x] Stay single the whole year . (Had been single since born till now)CURRENTLY:67. Eating : Air68. Drinking : Water Vapour69. I'm about ton : Is this question a typo?70. Listening to : My own singing la~71. Plans for tomorrow : Sleep72. Waiting for : For myself to finish doing this quiz before going to sleepYOUR FUTURE:73. Want kids? : With who?74. Want to get married? : Fated to be single, how to married?75. Careers in mind : Create anime de~76. Lips or eyes : Simi question is this sia?77. Shorter or taller? : Taller (Tho its cute to be short? =X)78. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic79. Nice stomach or nice arms : Huh???80. Sensitive or loud : Sia la... i dun understand so many question... xia suay81. Hook-up or relationship : Relationship82. Trouble-maker or hesitant : Both also dun wan how???HAVE YOU EVER:83. Lost glasses/contacts : I dun have at all~84. Ran away from home : "Run" out have. lolx85. Hold a gun/knife for self defense : I would have been caught if i did that???86. Killed somebody : Would i be typing this thing again if i did???87. Broken someone's heart : Somehow~88. Been arrested : I so guai, how to tio arrested~89. Cried when someone died : T.TDO YOU BELIEVE IN:90. Yourself : No, i dun91. Miracles : Almost none soon92. Love at first sight : No idea93. Heaven : Nope94. Santa Claus : Nope, bo snow in singapore... He would have been dead hot =.="95. Sex on the first date : Believe as in other ppl does it? Then yes. Me, then no.96. Kiss on the first date : Same as the previous qn97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? : Twinnie Twinnie Twinnie... T.T98. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? : Seriously No99. Do you believe in God? : Nope... Cux life so unfair100.This is the 100th and last question : Do you feel empty ? : Wat empty? Im hungry...NOW TAG 10 PEOPLE TO DO THIS:I dun have so many leahx~Anyone read this jus do ok?SCWMYi Rou