Its my birthday yesterday, Happy Birthday to me. I know i should be hoping for anything but somewhere in my heart still wish to receive a birthday wish from you... But it never came
Walk a detour while otw home, like how i used to send you home when we went out. The path that seems so memorable to me. I just couldnt hold my tears on my birthday even.
About the same time last year was my birthday chalet. Still remember you came over to help me carry some stuff over and came over everyday. Even the last day i overslept and you called me up in the morning.
I was quite hesitate initially when you came back... kidda cold... But hearing you telling me that you have changed and similar thing will not happen again makes me try to wanna believe in you again. Deep down my heart i still want you. As time goes by i ended up accepting you again... And yes, the story loops...
I lost the sense of being secure... afraid that people around me might just leave me like how you do... I may not express my feelings to you well, i may not be a good boyfriend to you... I maybe the worst guy to you even now... But thinking about you and hoping you would be back and not leave for 3 years after hurting 3 times is no joke...
I would be grateful if you really did love me for that short period of time...
Love you much...