Thursday, December 31, 2009 ♥
Last day of the year still sad... ♥
Got 3 place to go at firstEnd up im not at any of the three placeThis sux...All because of one guyAnd that is the called "friend"I had always put friends at my first piorityBut non of my friend did ever put me in the first...Other who cant come out jiu nvmOne keep saying tired, dun wan come outThis and tht all excusesEnd up is go out with other friend... wth was tht...Jus tell me u meet other ppl le, simple rit?Y do u have to lie to me with such stupid excuse...Next is another guy, meet me go outHe at office drunk liao wan me go there find himEscort him home like a security guardEnd up stay at his house do nth!!!And see him sleepThen end up nv go up...Sigh... Walk home alone, down the lonely streetThis feeling sux, dun ever try it!Now alone at home...Duno wat to do...Miss her still... i duno wat i shld do also...We seems like stranger + normal friendsIm like asking for too much i guess...But well, lets see how it goes thenLets take things step by stepI mus understand tht she need time tooTo have space and time to breatheI mus understand...I mus understand...Blah!!! =PHappy New Year to everyoneAnd to her
Tuesday, December 29, 2009 ♥
Ok, Continue ♥
Continue from where i stopActually i forget whr i stop liao...LolxJus fun for tht eve i guess, i duno abt the othersDin slp after i got home cux cnt slp alsoDo some work even tho i have no moodEnd up like do nth liddatWhole day duno bo liao or watAt nite went to watch Avatar with friends at 11+Watch until abt 3am liddatCome home again cnt slp...Sigh...Maybe the tiredness kill me, then woah! Not bad alsoEnjoy until die rather than sad until die rit?Live life happily if i can u see???Suicide is a stupid way, cux u die sadly, not happily~The next day went to my cousin bday partySo long nv go liaoAll like stranger, i feel kidda oddSms people hope to get reply but dun seem to have much replyEat something, Drink something and then go to Grandpa HseDown thr stay overnite, do nth muchThey so slow pace de life... i not used to itCux is like sit ard, watch TV, do nth... My proj at homeI cnt relax at easeAfter tht they go slp ard 2 or 3am???I nv slp againWatch some anime, read some blog post, use facebookMorning eat mac then duno wat againThen go Plaza Sing buy ticket for ChipmunkThe show ok ok la, after watching Avatar, i think all show ok okLolx... Thats how good i think it isFurthermore humans die!!! They lostThats the part im happy about...Went home after dinner and then ah...After 3 sleepless nite~ I can slp abit...After so long le... I hope i can really be out of my own trap...Maybe its time to let go, maybe its not...When i see her saying she is sad, i have the urge to msg herIts not like im afraid tht she would ignore meBut something else in my mind...I still miss the past alot, but its not able to be the same anymoreWats over its definately overWats the future depends on wat we build???I anyhow typing now... LOLXHm... ya... Took the first step by msg herAnd i put =/How stupid... lolxIt doesnt seems we r very close anymorePehaps jus far away de friends that jus meet or wateverThe way we speak, i felt the distance so far...But i will continue to walk forward againAnd hope tht one day i will reach the destination i wan...
Sunday, December 27, 2009 ♥
Christmas ♥
Miss, missing, misses youI dun wan any better ones, I just wan youOh well... Nvm, dosnt really matters wat i say anywayJust dun wan u to feel sad jiu hao lePromise me to stay happy k?Really bu ren xin even to see u saying u sadTalking abt christmasThe eve is the best christmas eve i ever hadUsually i wont even celebrate itCux i dun have someone to celebrate it with me???LolxThen went out tht day and buy soft toy with qpCux he need it for free entryRoam ard waiting for other ppl to comeThen went to my fav place!Cux i blur again, so it jus seems so fun thrSomething happened again to me thr, so goodDin expect also... lolxHy they all, all so shockedHahaxThen after tht feel stomach odd odd, went toliet try pukeBut nth came outMus be my gastric pain i guessOpen my phone and saw few messagesAll christmas wishesOni read one msg by her before i go off and then close back liaoLolxHm... yeah... Din knw i could bring myself to replyMaybe cux im jus blur blur barhBut then i am able to write wat i really feel inside the msgBlahhhh~~~But then kidda sry i said tht again to herI dun think she would like it either... so ya~Continue until SC, Issac, QP gave upMe and Hy continue and i was having fun lorhThen end up SC pull me awaySay go mac, hungry liaoArgh!Then thats the endI going out project meeting nowContinue the story and add more details later!Cya~
Tuesday, December 22, 2009 ♥
Confused ♥
Its not tht i think u would ignore meIts jus i duno how i could face u without feeling sadI knw im selfish this way...But i have too many projects to have tht feeling nowWell... it may be jus excuses...But...Sorry... I need more time i guessHope u r taking care of yrself well and stay happyU miss him, while im missing u...Take care~
Sunday, December 20, 2009 ♥
Went out ♥
Although i have alot project... im stress, i went out...Went to a church for the first time and was quite funThe performance was like a concertThen listen to a person talk abt his story and was interestingIt was funny as it goes along since the way he talk is erm erm..Went to MRT to meet SC and KennGo to Bugis and shop for new year clothesMeet up with HY and IssacWent to pasta mania to eat dinnerHad a half full meal since mine is so smallWent to Iluma and see the Otaku ShopSee all the anime stuff and spend lots of time thereThen the sales person talk to me suddenlyI was so shockedSeldom gals auto talk to meShe ask me "That item nice anot?"I say "ok ok barhx"She ask again "That one leahx?"I say "ok ok also lorh"Then she say "Say nice ok?"I ask "Why?"She say "Just say first then i tell u"Then i reply "Nice nice"Then she say "Then mus buy ok??"Lolx... like make fun of meBut ok la, she oni talk to me...I feel honoured~Then after walking alot in the shop liaoShe tell me to buy thing hor, cux walk so longLolx!But we really never buy anything siaAs we leave, she talk to me againSay how come nv buy anythingWalk so long liao... lolxWalk all the way to Marina Square...To USE TOLIET
ROFL...Then continue walking and then duno whr to walk liaoDuno whr to go then go home liaoPersuaded HY and Kenn pei me go drink...I wan the feeling tht i can feel nth muchDrunk... that is...So we take MRT back to Tamp and boughtI was so hungry but that is betterMakes me drunk easierI gulp down whole bottle but then no useI feel like if i easier to drunk jiu hao...Play "Cai quan"Got alot forfiet and HY need to record a MV of lady gagaI keep on the music loud loudAnd shake shake shakeBut then i jus cnt be drunk...So sad...Came homeSee comIm sadSaw her blog with all the loves and <3I did nthI jus have tears flow down like alwaysSo stupid... "Because im stupid"Thats wat my fav song daysI wish i have no emotions...No feelings... Jus dead...I cnt forget...I miss her, i really do...But i cnt do anythingI hope she will still find me if she meets any problemCux there is always someone she could lean onIf she meets any obstical... is this how u spell it?My tears are dried after i finish typingMy heart too...I duno wat to reply anymore...Im jus a passerby~
Saturday, December 5, 2009 ♥
Normal Friend ♥
Because i dun think of you as a normal friend anymore...
